Monday, April 6, 2015

Caught... Not Taught

I've really missed spending the last bits of my day recording our little families comings, goings.... lessons learned and giggles shared... bad days, crazy days, good days - usually all wrapped into one.

I spent the past two weeks being very intentional reflecting on our every day life. What do we do? How are we spending our time? Even with the chaos of running around whether it's doctors appointments, softball, parties, ministries or grabbing more milk and diapers, we haven't been real great at using all the time we do have wisely.

We've been living in a go go go pattern and always seem to be behind. Never able to catch up.

So for the past couple of weeks, I've tried to write down every single thing we are doing and evaluate how we spend our time... whether wisely or wasteful. What makes sense to keep doing and what do we need to let go?  Maybe... what do we need to start doing more of.... This is where I want to settle.

I've been trying to make time for our relationships... starting with the most important; our relationship with Christ. We haven't been spending time in prayer or bible reading as a family. We've been so inconsistent parenting with the gospel being the root of everything we do.

After hearing our message on Easter Sunday, it's time we start living with an eternal perspective. There is so much I wish I had done differently as a person but most importantly as a parent. I wish that I did everything just right. The first time. But I'm forever thankful for a new day. A new chance. New mercies. Unending grace.

This morning, when it was quiet and not a sound in the house, I got up to spend some time just soaking in The Word. I was quietly interrupted by the sweetest little footsteps in her footie pajamas walking to meet me at the kitchen table.

These are the moments that I never want to forget.

Little Bear saw I was reading my bible, hopped down from the table and left the kitchen. She returned with her bible, climbed back on the chair and just started flipping through the pages. She didn't say a word. She just did whatever she saw her mama doing.... yogurt, cookies (granola) and fruit... coffee (apple juice)... and spending time with Jesus.

We need to remember, mamas, that what we do in our every day matters. That how we spend our time, the actions we take matter. The words we choose, whether in joy or frustration, matter. Believe me, I have to start over many times each day. But seeing this little girl, being a reflection of her mama, just doing what she saw was being done. This is what we need to remember... our littles are watching. Even when you think they're not, they are. Even when you can't see them, they're listening.

I needed this gentle reminder today and the convictions over the past few weeks.

I needed to get this out on paper too. (Well, it's kind of like paper... ish)