tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37541458721552543432024-03-18T21:01:22.010-07:00Everyday JariDoing my best to glorify Christ in our messy, beautiful life.Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.comBlogger272125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-72374811439271651592018-01-02T22:19:00.000-08:002018-01-02T22:19:03.723-08:00Scripture Memorization IdeaI have always struggled with memorizing scripture. I know the importance of it... to store His Word and Truth in your heart, but I stink at it. Really, I do. Oh ok, honestly, whenever I had to take tests, I would cram. Oh ok, and to be even more honest, I'm still a crammer! *shoot!<br />
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I saw this somewhere and I've been doing it for a little bit and I'm amazed at how many words are etched on my heart. You write down somewhere where you'll see it many times during the day (I clearly chose my forearm) the first letter of each word in the verse. Then when you look at it, it's incredible how the words just pop out at your just seeing the first word.<br />
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----You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Psalms 23:5-----<br />
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Each one of my kiddos have noticed and pointed it out.... Arly said, "oh cool." Alyn said, "looks like a tattoo." Avin said, "so we can write on our skin?' and Anchor colored his hands PINK!<br />
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What do you think? Would you try it too? Do you have a way that you memorize scripture that you'd like to share?<br />
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Wow! The last entry posted was wayyyyy over a year ago (almost two!) So much has changed since we announced we were moving back 'home' to South Dakota. We had a few celebrations and a few heartaches. Our story grew and cracked, but when I look at the time between entries; my heart is grateful for each moment because of the growth we experienced. I have so many words to share; so many memories to document for our family, but first, I'm starting with today. The very first day of the new year.<br />
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A new day. A new week. A new month. A new year.... could it get any better?! I have all the feels.<br />
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There is something amazingly refreshing about the newness of all of it. We spent NYE very low key. Joel and I stayed home, with the littles (the bigs ditched us for fun with friends), snuggled in tight with temps as low as -33 (yes, that is actual air temp, not wind chill.... that is RIDICULOUSLY COLD!) I spent the whole weekend wearing the same clothes, the same stink (yeah, it's been since Friday since I've showered... ew. I better put that on my 'to do' list.... I kid.... kind of) and doing the same thing: organizing E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G in this house. I've gone through EVERY photo, EVERY piece of fabric, EVERY pen and marker; ya'll.... EVERYTHING. It looks like a mega yard sale (or dump) in our house but I promise, it's progress. I just hope the garbage guys feel as excited I am about the overflow.<br />
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I still feel overwhelmed at the mess and every part of my being wanted to be finished by tonight, but I'm not. And I'm ok with that. I'm more than ok with it. I have a lot of work to do.... but I spent a good part of my in between this weekend playing twister, 'art teacher' and race car with the littles (thanks Grama and Papa), decorating Arly's bedroom, coffee date with girlfriends and running through the kitchen playing 'get me!'<br />
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I have big goals for this year. But I'm not going to jump into all of them right away. One at a time. I pray I develop good habits this year all starting with daily Bible readings and scripture memorization. Even if it's just reading a verse for the day (hey, every thing works best with baby steps first right?) or reading from a short devotional, or a plan on She Reads Truth or YouVersion apps....every day will start in The Word. What about you? What is your FIRST goal this year?<br />
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JariJarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-35979778766608722352016-06-06T17:26:00.001-07:002016-06-06T17:26:32.467-07:00Spry's BIG News<span style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4unj9TWVocIciHuC42PF7GxWBDCqbKNg_BQnmvzG-M375ocp91aapHERuPTlv-dJ4ZFAVji0cBvKYyxMspSKFmVXLMZz50kHzk3MsA3wN0MtfxXRjgegFUdYinEzpIPhBZ6afi3FI2eFu/s640/blogger-image-1689969514.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4unj9TWVocIciHuC42PF7GxWBDCqbKNg_BQnmvzG-M375ocp91aapHERuPTlv-dJ4ZFAVji0cBvKYyxMspSKFmVXLMZz50kHzk3MsA3wN0MtfxXRjgegFUdYinEzpIPhBZ6afi3FI2eFu/s640/blogger-image-1689969514.jpg"></a></div>That's right, not because of circumstance.... But because of choice. </span><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">Joel and I were born and raised in South Dakota... Went to college and were married there... Had our first two babies and purchased our first home there. We are SD people. </div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">Eight years ago we moved to Missoula MT and have loved every moment of it. We have met friends here whom we will always consider family. We met Jesus here and have the most amazing church family. We had two more babies here. We started Scentsy here that has blessed our lives beyond measure. We love the mountains and rivers and everything in between. Our softball community is the best. It's going to incredibly hard to leave here. </div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">Now here's the reality of our hearts. Everything about moving back home feels so right. We are currently 11-13 hours away from any family and all family (minus the military siblings). This means that almost every birthday, celebration, and holidays are spent without family and sometimes feel like any other normal day. Two summers ago, we lost Joel's father to cancer. We travelled back as often as we could to see him and spend his last months together but by being so far away, it was difficult and we always wished we had more time together. This past year, with Anchor's super early arrival, our family bent over backwards to help us out. Some of them spent their annual vacation time off to come serve our family at the drop of a hat. Another component is that my grandparents are still living and I want nothing more than my children to have time to get to know them better and hear their stories. We want our parents, siblings, nieces and nephews to be a present part of our lives. We want them to be there to cheer for our kids and celebrate life's precious moments with them... And us for them too. Being away for 8 years is long enough for us. It's time. If we could move them all up here, we would. But we can't... And so we must go. </div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">Some may ask where?.... Philip , South Dakota (population about 800) in west central South Dakota. Our kiddos will adjust to small town life just fine I think. They spent 3 weeks last summer there with family during our last weeks in the NICU and they had a blast! They loved the simplicity and joy of riding bikes, walking around town, and swimming twice a day. This is how I grew up and have wondered if and when my children would experience it.... Now they will. </div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">Joel is transferring with Progressive. They have been so gracious to us the past 12 years and especially amazing this past year. He will be able to work from our home (which we have to build but do have a contract on a few acres!) It will be an adjustment living and working together all day every day, but honestly we miss that about our NICU days when we were together 24/7. </div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">I will still and always be a Scentsy girl... Your Scentsy girl! Because of the way we are able to do business, I have customers and hostesses all over the US and Canada. I'll always be able to serve our Montana customers with the click of a button and maybe a post office trip or two. I'd be happy and excited to serve you always... Unless you want to join my team and be the Scentsy girl for you and your friends. That's be equally as exciting! We have an incredible team of consultant in the area that would be just as happy as I if you joined our family. Training and connecting is easy through social media and smart devices so you'll never get rid of me :) As for our business in SD, we are beyond thrilled to work with our consultants there and in NE and WY more and train them like we never have had the opportunity to do in person before. It's going to be exciting!</div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">What about Anchored Hope? Oh yes, this new project, we pray, will continue to thrive and grow. We will find a small group of friends here to be our basket assemblers and deliverers when needed. Our 501(c)3 will hopefully be finished by the end of this month (first have to get this house on the market!) We will continue to head up the fundraising and needs for Community Medical NICU baskets and plan to eventually bring this little mission to SD NICUs and families. </div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">We will be back to visit often as we are keeping Anchor's specialist doctors here. Hey know his history and we trust them so we will take the trip out annually and see friends and family and enjoy this beautiful place on earth. </div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 14px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">So.... "From purple mountain majesty to amber waves of grain"... The Sprys are 'double backing' in August 2016. <div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div></div>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-26041476906066584532016-04-06T22:22:00.002-07:002016-04-06T22:22:41.223-07:00Telling My Story<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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What would the world miss if we didn't tell our story?<br />
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It would miss my mess ups, my failures... it would miss my messy and my mundane.... but the world would also miss the miracles I've witnessed and my heart when it is overwhelmed, humbled, honest and overjoyed as well.<br />
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This past year has been an incredible ride.... really, my whole life has been. Even though I think I'll remember every detail forever, I know that's impossible because every day, new memories, new moments are being made and at some point my brain will get full and start erasing moments. I know our days are short and I know that these moments, that these days that we live every single day, are worthy of being shared. They are worth the memory. They are meant to be shared. Even if I'm yelling, even if I'm falling flat on my face... but to share what falling on my knees looks like too. I want to remember the good, the incredible, the messy, the crazy. So I share it here.<br />
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What story do you have to tell? Are you brave enough to share it? What if you did? Would people see you differently? Wouldn't the honesty feel so right? Let's step back and let Jesus shine in our every day.<br />
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Until tomorrow,Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-20910916080054756142016-02-05T18:34:00.005-08:002016-02-05T18:34:57.825-08:00Sniffles and SnugglesThere's something a little magical when you come home from a trip.... Even a super quick trip. Especially when you haven't been away from your kiddos for months and months. True smiles and the 'so glad you came backs' just make a mama melt.<br />
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Then I find out that we are battling a cold with Avin, who lets just say doesn't have the best hygiene etiquette when it comes to a runny nose and cough. </div>
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Now here's my shameless plug because I love it and truly believe this little device would bring value to your home and lives too. Our <a href="https://jari.scentsy.us/Buy/Category/2854">Scentsy oil diffusers</a> are pretty much amazing and in my and many others opinions, the best diffusers on the market. With a LIFETIME warranty (yes you read that correctly), 16 LED lighting options and 3 diffusing settings, this beauty will be beautiful, and useful, addition to your home. I'm thrilled to tell you that it is 10% off which makes it $117 for this month only. I'm telling you, from experience, you won't regret the decision to invest in one (or two) of this little miracle workers. </div>
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Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-64813078180675008082016-02-02T21:30:00.001-08:002016-02-02T21:30:35.580-08:00Lungs! Are they big enough yet?<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiufQiHnke88oj0ellnAW8RV6327xBftd7MP_qMwlXMEvo51-Aj3H3eykuMFLpzwooq58ymqcf_WEFfmmrAJOqvAHK9Qxg26BjSyN6bTYbx3LISM6NEG5o-0PO7wy_Gr5VltO_errjK-sDd/s640/blogger-image--697857941.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiufQiHnke88oj0ellnAW8RV6327xBftd7MP_qMwlXMEvo51-Aj3H3eykuMFLpzwooq58ymqcf_WEFfmmrAJOqvAHK9Qxg26BjSyN6bTYbx3LISM6NEG5o-0PO7wy_Gr5VltO_errjK-sDd/s640/blogger-image--697857941.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Anchor Joel has a big appointment tomorrow. His daddy is taking him to see the pediatric pulmonary specialist. He gets to show his doctor what a strong boy he is and how much his lungs have grown. For the past month, Anchor has been using just a tiny bit of oxygen during his naps and through the night. For the past few days, only at night. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">We are excited to hear what his doctor has to say about his progress. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">If you remember, please say a prayer for our little guy's lungs to be restored and healthy enough to say bye bye to the cords and machines. </div>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-32036809966901233632016-01-31T23:28:00.001-08:002016-01-31T23:28:57.106-08:00Anchor Update (kidneys)<br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2OOyQm1SbyJZmOVI06cVJu17-0HIAzMV9S3w_HNFwuMWb2Xd_xlR41RnZ1yaflNDRgIvvrLolFUOw-3O1bPN5t3cA0xBv2du3GfMReQfwmYICWsb1VeIXIsc5WOUAonUXMJr9Kr2RFEJk/s640/blogger-image--2095481181.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2OOyQm1SbyJZmOVI06cVJu17-0HIAzMV9S3w_HNFwuMWb2Xd_xlR41RnZ1yaflNDRgIvvrLolFUOw-3O1bPN5t3cA0xBv2du3GfMReQfwmYICWsb1VeIXIsc5WOUAonUXMJr9Kr2RFEJk/s640/blogger-image--2095481181.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">On the outside, little Anchor Joel looks like a healthy, growing baby boy. And for the most part he is. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">But there is no doubt that he has overcome many challenges and still has a few he will be facing head on probably sooner than we will be ready for. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Just days before we left the NICU after our nearly 3 month stay, Anchor started showing signs of hypertension. His blood pressure was considerably high, enough to medicate him immediately. After a renal ultrasound it was assumed that the hypertension was caused by a blood clot sheath that was most likely left behind by his picc line. We'd leave him on medicine until that sheath broke down and dissolved and that would likely take care of the hypertension. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">After working with Seattle Childrens, we were able to 'borrow' a blood pressure monitor and check his pressure measurements twice a day. The bigger Anchor got, the more meds he had to be on. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">The end of October, we went back to the pediatric nephrologist (kidney specialist) and had another ultrasound of his kidneys. This time it showed that his right kidney was noticeably smaller. Unsure if that was natural or caused by prematurity, we were told it was likely caused by restricted blood flow to that kidney. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Last Wednesday, we had a follow up with his nephrologist. We are understanding now that there is likely a blood clot in his right kidney causing stunted growth or worst case no growth to that kidney. We will have more answers the bigger our sweet boy grows and we are able to track and trend kidney growth through ultrasound. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">We know whatever the outcome, we will continue to trust The Lord with everything. How can we not? He has never once left us with anything but peace and comfort during this journey. Sure, this can be uncomfortable... But I know there is good to come from every little thing in not only this boy's life, but ours too. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I'm asking for prayers from you. Please pray for the healing for our precious sons kidney. Pray for normal function and growth. Please pray for lower blood pressures (which Joel and I continue to monitor here at home daily) and a chance for his little heart (more on that soon!) to get some rest from working so hard. Oh and don't forget about his lungs.... We will have more news on that after Wedensdays appointment. God is good and full grace and hears every prayer. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Now I just can't quit smiling at this photo. Today, Joel and I found some diapers with anchors on them and we just HAD to have them for our boy. I melt. </div>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-43538174809975359262016-01-29T07:48:00.001-08:002016-01-29T07:48:09.354-08:00A Clean House - With the Whole FamilyI have to share with you what IS working for our family and it may work for yours too! <div><br></div><div>House Cleaning! House cleaning?! We have tried many (and I mean too many to remember) ways to get (and keep) our home clean. </div><div><br></div><div>We've tried separating out the chores per day of the week, we had hired housekeepers not once but twice, we tried challenges and contests, we even pretended that Adele was coming over and we wanted to impress her and would run around like crazy people to get things picked up. But.... None of them worked long term. </div><div><br></div><div>A few weeks ago, I was picking up some girls to bring to the next mom to take into town for volleyball (yes that sounds confusing but it takes a village to get all these athletes where they need to go, when they need to go!) I asked one of Arly's friends if she got to do anything fun with her extra hour that afternoon since it was Thursday and they get out of school an hour earlier than usual. She told me that on Thursdays, her sister and her clean the house and instead of an allowance or commission, the work they do is rewarded by how they spend their weekend. If they do a good job, they will get to go to the movies, spend time with friends, etc. </div><div><br></div><div>Great idea!!!!!</div><div><br></div><div>I needed to figure out a way this concept would work for our family. That weekend I thought of many scenarios and finally landed on this one. We tried it, and now we are 2 weeks in and it's working splendidly! </div><div><br></div><div>We have one night during the week that is currently not filled with another obligation. We use that night to get all of our house cleaning done. </div><div><br></div><div>First I grabbed a chalkboard and wrote down 12 chores that needed done that week. The four oldest Sprys would each have 3 chores to do. </div><div><br></div><div>Then I grabbed a bowl and cut up paper and put each of our names on just ONE. I have the chores broken into categories from hardest/takes the most time to easier/less time to complete the chore. This way, one person couldn't end up with the 3 hardest chores. For example; the kitchen and the 3 bathrooms were one category... 4 hard chores. The vacuuming, wood floors, dust upstairs, dust downstairs were the next category and so on. </div><div><br></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfmTLYMYHyjPYIQqrmwKdPidz3vBlHzKtSO-NA-c5cyp1XBOdqH-rVTAsTTTvAUYoYgSRo-pWsEzZOgePiBn6uAuI7nRoWHStvYz2dhABmUzDGaRRFj42-Qc22GIBOnmkwLNWizcMzXPF0/s640/blogger-image--1474792658.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfmTLYMYHyjPYIQqrmwKdPidz3vBlHzKtSO-NA-c5cyp1XBOdqH-rVTAsTTTvAUYoYgSRo-pWsEzZOgePiBn6uAuI7nRoWHStvYz2dhABmUzDGaRRFj42-Qc22GIBOnmkwLNWizcMzXPF0/s640/blogger-image--1474792658.jpg"></a></div>Then we simply drew names out of the bowl. Each would grab one name and we'd work down the list, putting a name next to who was in charge of the chore. Then dos the next category of chores, all 4 names went back into the bowl for the next drawing, and so on. </div><div><br></div><div>This put a absolute end to the 'that's not fair!' and the 'I always have to do that!' and 'ew! Anyone want to trade?!' It's just the luck of the draw and so far, ZERO COMPLAINTS! Win!!!</div><div><br></div><div>Then we crank the music (not too loud for the littles' ears) and get after it. It takes about 2-2 1/2 hours to get our whole house cleaned but it relieves us of a weeks worth of stressing out about a dirty bathroom, bedroom, appliances, or whatever we see. </div><div><br></div><div>For a mama that is home all day, this has brought much peace and order to our home. When there is a mess, my brain is a mess. When I feel overwhelmed, intend to shut down. This system is the perfect fix to help me be productive in my every day and let's be honest, keeps me a little calmer and my sanity in check! </div><div><br></div><div>Oh and want to know what else is keeping me sane and is actually quite fun doing? Tidying our home! We're trying a new tidy method that has worked wonders for friends that are currently working through it or have finished. We are seeing success and sin through this method but I'll share more of that here oh so soon. </div><div><br></div><div>Do you have a cleaning system that works for you? Have you struggled like us? I want to know! </div>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-11064941927435856602016-01-26T22:08:00.001-08:002016-01-26T22:08:40.987-08:00My Story<br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzHmMmKTSiLmeoU8jy0s0HB4PrOREXmxdhY_IJ95_sZaCwuQ39fGvmzB5UeGAfifeLT2FOcSp_Pm_5_dDrxQA8LRCkLF1L35ao-3BD-0Fy7ANpOYbaJMEhh7zqG5rftaluvD-XnKJAqccq/s640/blogger-image-124431424.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzHmMmKTSiLmeoU8jy0s0HB4PrOREXmxdhY_IJ95_sZaCwuQ39fGvmzB5UeGAfifeLT2FOcSp_Pm_5_dDrxQA8LRCkLF1L35ao-3BD-0Fy7ANpOYbaJMEhh7zqG5rftaluvD-XnKJAqccq/s640/blogger-image-124431424.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">When you let fear sneak in and grip your soul, you essentially are welcoming the devil to reside in your heart. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Unfortunately, we let him tell us lies and we listen. We close up; trap ourselves from what we know and find joy in because we now believe that nothing is good and no one cares. We shrink into a pit. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">That's where we were, both Joel and I... In a pit. A self pity pit and we sat there just surviving the everyday life. Not thriving. Not growing. Just there. Numb to the outside world. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">But then, the Holy Spirit made it very clear that we have this moment, today this season to grow in Him. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">When Anchor was in the NICU and the days leading up to delivery, I knew what it was like to be on my knees. Physically and spiritually I was there.... Praising, thanking, begging, loving, trusting. There was no room for anger, resentment or fear. I knew what it felt like to be close to The Lord; wrapped in his loving arms. Peace. Even through utter chaos, scary days and isolating weeks.... Peace. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">But then somehow, sometime, in the midst of all the crazy 'back to somewhat normal' life at home, I chose to believe the fear and lies. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I'm a woman of few real regrets. I've learned from so many choices I've made in the past that I don't regret even poor decisions. But I do however regret not journaling and sharing this story... My story. It has all happened so quickly but yet the days have dragged on and on. I thought sometime I'll record it; but never did. That time is now. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I want to share my story. All of it. I don't want to forget any day... Happy, boring, sad, crazy, scary, unpredictable, fun day. I don't want to forget any event... Sudden, to be determined, planned, spontaneous event.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">It feels so good to be sitting in our quiet, albeit messy house... Back on the keys where one by one, sharing my thoughts. I'm looking forward to opening my heart again here; being vulnerable in my every day life and doing my very best to glorify our gracious Father for each moment. </div>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-50914596562476761092015-11-09T18:30:00.000-08:002015-11-09T18:30:01.182-08:00Anchored Hope Project - We need you to make this work<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
<span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><br class="Apple-interchange-newline" />On May 4th, 2015, our lives were forever changed by the early arrival of our 4th child and only son, Anchor Joel. Born at 26 weeks (3 1/2 months early) at 1 lb 15 oz, we knew our journey home was going to be a long, hard one. But one thing we never lost was HOPE. Every minute, hour and day were overwhelming and isolating. </span></div>
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In order to make all of this happen, we need your help; it's bigger than we can do on our own. This project has been weighing on our hearts for some time, and it's our prayer that you will help make this a reality for our extended stay, NICU families here in Missoula Montana. It's our goal to have the first 24 Hope baskets ready to be delivered by November 17th: World Prematurity Day (Wear your purple! We will be!). With your help, we can make this our goal delivery day! </div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 16px;">1. Donate money here at our YouCaring. link or simply send your donation to jari.spry@gmail.com on PayPal. Please use the 'send money to family and friends' option so we can avoid processing fees on PayPal. If you can give $5, $10 or even $20 each month, your continuous giving will make this project thrive for months and hopefully years to come. </span></span></div>
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Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-60791674573854257062015-11-01T20:38:00.000-08:002015-11-01T20:40:45.934-08:00Anchored Hope... (when the need to give is more than you can handle)You know when you get that overwhelming feeling of you HAVE to do it? That's where we are at right now. Actually, that's where we have been since before we came home with our little guy back in July.<br>
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There was a sense of isolation that I just couldn't shake. Joel felt it too. It wasn't for lack of calls and messages. Nor the lack of prayer or even food. Our family, church, friends, coworkers were amazing. We felt such love and support in the beginning and though it trickled after the weeks went on, we knew we were well prayed for and thought of often.<br>
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The neonatologists, nurses, therapists, actually everyone at Community Medical Center's NICU department were incredible. They made us feel welcomed and at home. They listened to our concerns and shared theirs as well. We felt like family (still do!) and loved completely. That wasn't the kind of isolation we felt either.<br>
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It's almost impossible to explain. It wasn't that we felt slighted or forgotten by God either. We knew He was with us and everything that happened in the days leading up to Anchor's birth and even the weeks after were all according to His plans. We were and are living the life He designed for us and honestly, we've never felt closer to Our Savior than we have since then. We truthfully never asked why... but what's next. We felt and still feel the overwhelming grace by God in all circumstances.<br>
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I didn't know then what it was we were feeling isolated from until a couple months ago. The strong sense of empty came from not being in community with other families that were currently or have went through a long term NICU stay because of a premature baby. I know there are many... MANY babies born early and need a few days in the care of these special doctors and nurses. Walking out of the hospital without your baby is one of the worst things imaginable and too many of you have had to do that for some reason or another. But walking through the hospital doors 252 times without your baby in your arms is heartbreaking. You just want to talk with someone who feels the same thing. Someone who truly knows what that emptiness feels like. How buckling up in your car and seeing a vacant back seat brings you to tears, sometimes uncontrollable, nearly every time. How waiting for the doctor to come in and give you your babies daily report would make you weak in the knees.<br>
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To be very honest, in my previous healthy births of our three daughters, I never gave one thought of the NICU. I never really knew what it meant even when other friends had their babies in the NICU for weeks. I never understood what that looked like... what that felt like. I didn't give it a second thought and for those friends who experienced this; and for that I am absolutely sorrow filled and sorry. I was not a good friend. I didn't understand.<br>
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The NICU was our second home for 84 days this summer. From May 4th until July 26th, we spent most of our days there, in Anchor's room, learning his care and holding him every chance we got; waiting for his daily schedule of tests and therapies, getting through one hour at a time and gradually being able to breathe easier as the days went on. Being exhausted but full of hope.... and lonely.<br>
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The way our NICU is set up is genius. There are private rooms for each baby and also rooms for sets of twins and triplets, so you have privacy to talk with your doctors and nurses, hold your baby, cry, laugh, pray, read, sing and cry some more. I loved that when I had to pump every 2 hours, I could do that comfortably. I loved that when we had family visit, we could have a quiet conversation. I loved that we could have our little family in there together before Avin would get too rambunctious and not share that space or time with anyone else.<br>
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But, the one downside to having private rooms, is that the only rare moments to meet other families with babies in the NICU, was walking through the hallway (we were in the first room so we barely saw other babies or families) or when we were waiting in line to wash our hands and arms upon entering the NICU. We needed a tribe. We needed people to talk with about everything.<br>
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Fortunately, we had a precious nurse who sat and cried with us and shared her journey with us as she was once in the same shoes as us. Until that moment, we didn't know anyone who would understand our feelings. Tiffany, you are an angel. Thank you.<br>
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We knew we needed to reach out and share our story. We knew we had to let others in our room... in our hearts. We met the sweetest couple who had the tiniest little girl who had lungs of a champ down the hall. We met the sincerest newlywed couple who had a little warrior that was proving God's amazing work. We said goodbye for now and congrats to two little girls who had grown big and strong and headed home with their families after several weeks of living the NICU life. Before we were discharged in July, we met an adorable couple with twin girls who were fighting like crazy and showing God's grace every hour.<br>
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The conversations we had with these families helped shape what is about to come. We need each other. We need to know that we are not alone and so does every family that has an extended stay, waiting for their precious child's daily report. We need to show them we care and most of all because we were there.<br>
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That's where Anchored Hope came from. Joel and I have spent several nights praying and planning what this looks like. We don't know exactly how it will work but we know it's what we need to do.<br>
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But first things first. If you are a NICU family in the Missoula area or spent many days in the the NICU in Missoula, we have created a facebook parent support group today. Please search 'Missoula NICU Parents' and add yourself. If you know of anyone who fits this group, please share this info. We need each other. We need to share our ups and downs, praise and prayer requests, during and beyond the NICU. We need this community. We need each other who understand each other.<br>
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But there is still more to come.....<br>
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<br>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-41297542615132496682015-10-08T14:59:00.001-07:002015-10-08T14:59:36.920-07:005 months of AmazingI can hardly believe it's been more than 5 months now since this little fella made his appearance. <div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSxBLABJ9zxqcROcyoHGYF1xwxeRN20Jq_owRhL1lym8XO9pQB-n4vC406bfP_9HR5B6DwabhMEtM4CvQZRPSvDEIdBX-uQv7rCFRRqXk0j0VF8KE6Xh8QcLGjsANse-vLfFmtioc3DUMZ/s640/blogger-image-1147469718.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSxBLABJ9zxqcROcyoHGYF1xwxeRN20Jq_owRhL1lym8XO9pQB-n4vC406bfP_9HR5B6DwabhMEtM4CvQZRPSvDEIdBX-uQv7rCFRRqXk0j0VF8KE6Xh8QcLGjsANse-vLfFmtioc3DUMZ/s640/blogger-image-1147469718.jpg"></a></div><div><br></div><div>Official stats:</div><div><br></div><div>1 lb 15 oz at birth</div><div>10 lb 7 oz now</div><div><br></div><div>13 1/2 inches long at birth</div><div>21 inches now</div><div><br></div><div>On ventilator for breathing at birth</div><div>0.2 L/hr oxygen now</div><div><br></div><div>A little miracle at birth</div><div>Always showing signs of God's goodness now. </div><div><br></div><div>I'm blown away by grace and overflowing with love. </div><div><br></div><div>I mean, darn it, he's CUTE! </div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhmBO2dvh74wtMAGSgqtDFwqCZdTAjutCDJ63TdT0APWN20PZQmHkH4m2gmRJR7SuVuTTFIsGfbxr2uFUCYBVXjftAW53HyHZ5LJ4eBgoXsBsEU63D-uVB_4tx8xItCorPlMUqToXZpNdZ/s640/blogger-image--284850363.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhmBO2dvh74wtMAGSgqtDFwqCZdTAjutCDJ63TdT0APWN20PZQmHkH4m2gmRJR7SuVuTTFIsGfbxr2uFUCYBVXjftAW53HyHZ5LJ4eBgoXsBsEU63D-uVB_4tx8xItCorPlMUqToXZpNdZ/s640/blogger-image--284850363.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div></div>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-68140105662089805222015-09-21T09:31:00.002-07:002015-09-21T09:31:47.981-07:00Fear is SneakyYesterday, fear made it's way into this house.<br />
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The big girls both have colds. Super yuck snotty noses. Razor blade slicing throats. Tired and exhausted little bodies.<br />
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We've been living like they have the worst disease. I have sanitized every surface in our home, focusing on handles (every doorknob, fridge, microwave, sink, garbage, toilet flusher, handrail, everything). I woke up with a runny nose and stiff eyes and beyond tired.<br />
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I was on high alert with the two young Spry babies. I spent most of the day washing Avin's hands and using 'hanitizer' on them almost after every move she made.<br />
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NO ONE touched Anchor except for me. I wouldn't allow it. What if he gets sick?<br />
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I spent entirely too much of the day watching his chest. Each rise up and then deflate down. I was trying to tell myself that he was labored in his breathing. It was almost as if I was looking for what was wrong rather than what was right.<br />
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In the later afternoon, I swore he looked pale as he was sitting in his swing. I quickly ran to the bedroom to grab is oximeter. Remember that thing that had abused me for too long? Yes, that little machine that told me how our days were going to be in the hospital. The one that kept me up for nights on end telling me to worry at every little move.<br />
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But this time, I was just going to grab a quick reading; just a spot check to see how he was doing. It was reading a little low.... for a while. I would watch. Anchor was sound asleep and when he should be 93+, he was sitting at 91-92.<br />
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So I did the most rational thing anyone would do.... I FREAKED OUT! My baby's sick! What are we going to do? How did this happen? Should I take him in right now?<br />
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Y'all, my baby wasn't/isn't sick. I am. I let Satan create a fear in me that I had let go of a while ago. I wasn't trusting in Jesus in that moment. I was trying to control every germ in our house. Have you ever tried to do that? Control every germ? It's exhausting... and impossible for us as humans. Only God has that power. But the devil was using my control as a way to creep in and plant fear in my heart.<br />
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After a prayer of release of control & fear, I changed out our sweet boys oxygen cords, taped on a fresh cannula, grabbed him from his swing and cuddled him. As I was holding this little growing miracle, feeling his breath in sync with my own, I knew The Lord was telling me just to trust Him. Like we have from the beginning, we know we can't carry the burden of our breaths. Jesus has that for us. We just make sure we enjoy every moment we have while we are breathing.<br />
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That's what I was reminded yesterday. To trust. Again. Always. And then we took off the oximeter and got this sweet look. Oh my precious boy.<br />
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<br />Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-72686017360333510102015-09-15T21:36:00.001-07:002015-09-15T21:36:32.460-07:00Our Heroes (NICU Nurses)The term hero kind of sounds cliche. But truly, I can't think of another word that would even come close to describing how brave, intelligent, comforting and loving the Neonatal Intensive Care nurses are at Community Medical Center.<br />
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From the moment Anchor Joel was born on May 4th at a teeny 1 pound 15 ounces, not once did I feel that he could have been in better hands. There were many moments when just the look of kindness or sincerity would help calm my fears. The sure hands that helped my only son to my chest for the first time and even up to the hundredth time, I knew he was in the best care.<br />
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These nurses, whom I now call friends, were his moms when I couldn't be there. They cared for him and loved him while I was still heavily drugged for the first 2 days. They were my hands and comforting voice in between my 252 trips back and forth to the NICU.<br />
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Some heard me laugh every time my son would pass gas, some saw me mad at the scale the last few days there... but all of you saw me cry. Whether tears of exhaustion or tears of joy and hope, you were there to just listen.<br />
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Most of you new our faith and shared your stories of redemption with us too. The words we read together with each new bible verse we would hang on his bed, brought comfort to all of us. Some prayed with us each time we left our son.... and before every procedure or test he had. We thank you for your faith as it helped us keep ours strong.<br />
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One of you even walked me all the way to the emergency room the night I discovered I had mastitis; just so I knew exactly where I needed to go.<br />
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There really are not enough words of gratitude I could express to say how grateful Joel and I are for your care and comfort of our precious boy. My heart belongs to the NICU now. Your love helped carry us through that scary but incredible time we had in room 2.<br />
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I will never be the same because of you.<br />
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I've spent the past 7 weeks sitting and holding this little guy non stop! I love love love it... But also have an incredibly busy 2 year old to chase around, peeling her off the tops of furniture and running back and forth to the potty<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"> 389 times a day. (Which by the way is going fabulously!)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Now that we don't have our 5 ft ball and chains (oximeter) hanging off one of his feet Anchor can now snuggle right into this amazing wrap. He loves that he always gets held. I love that I can hold him and be hands free when needed. Avin loves to have a few more minutes of moms time during the day. </span></div>
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Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-51644029772889582162015-09-08T18:58:00.001-07:002015-09-08T19:06:17.386-07:00Bare feet.From the very first time I laid my eyes on our precious boy, my ears also heard the sounds of his existence. But this afternoon is different.<br>
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I recall the sounds that started out as deafening in the beginning. The 'cooooosh puff' of the ventilator letting us know every breath that was pumped into his lungs. The gurgle of the water to keep the ventilator humidified for his comfort. The hum of the heat lamps. So many beeps... from his heart rate monitor and his feeding pump. Add that to the dinging of the amount of the oxygen in his blood and every grunt, fart or cry would send that monitor into a wail. Joel and I used to joke with each other about how Anchor's NICU room sounded like a casino. There was so much noise. In the beginning, every sound would send my heart racing. What does that mean? What made that alarm go off? Why isn't someone coming in to check this alarm? I would get so nervous and my fear would creep in each time I heard another alarm.<br>
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As the days went on, we started to get more comfortable with the noise each machine made and the reason why the alarms would go off. Sometimes a little too comfortable. You know when you're in Vegas, how loud the casinos are on the first day; then on day 2 on, you can hardly hear the different bings and dings. This is exactly what the NICU turned into for us. The fatigue we had was real. But still we were alert enough to know when any serious alarm was made.<br>
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We brought Anchor home on oxygen and an oximeter. The home oxygen machine is the most comforting hum. I'm not sure if it's just the sound of it or knowing that it is still giving my son 30% of the air he needs to breathe. I love that sound. It's the perfect white noise to our every day. The oximeter, on the other hand, has kept me from peace in so many ways. In the hospital, both Joel and I were a slave to knowing exactly what his blood oxygen level was at every moment. We couldn't relax. Both of us would dart our eyes to the monitor as soon as the shrill of the alarm would sound. Going home with this machine was no different. For the first few weeks we were highly sensitive to each noise that came out of that little box. Every time Anchor burped... DING DING! Every time he farted or poop... DING! Every time he would cry real hard.... DING DING DING!!! All of these reasons for a sudden drop of oxygen in your body is absolutely normal. It happens to all of us... we just don't hear or see it because we don't have monitors hooked up to our feet. Not once did he have a true reason at home for the monitor to scare us half to death.<br>
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Over time, we quit hearing the beeps. They became silent to us, though deafening at the same time.<br>
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But today... today is different. Our doctor called this afternoon with fabulous news! She talked to Anchor's pulmonary specialist and they decided we could take off the monitor!!!! With his activity levels increasing, aka kicking like a mad man during waking hours, the machine wasn't giving us the correct readings all the time anyway. With no 'spells', aka sudden stop in breathing, since we've been home, there is no need to have 24/7 watch on his blood oxygen levels. This is FANTASTIC NEWS!<br>
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Although relieved, I know I won't be sleeping much tonight. Just like any newborn mom, I'll be up, making sure my little man is breathing okay. He still has his oxygen canulla but without the constant reading, I know I'll be a nervous wreck. Thrilled but nervous. That little white box brought so much calm and crazy into our lives. It's almost bittersweet. <br>
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Friends, we are getting closer. One less cord hanging off his little body. (We will continue to spot check his blood oxygen twice per day just to make sure it's in a healthy range.) He can finally wear footed jammies without cutting holes in the ankles or heels. No more stinky wrap to secure the monitor on his little foot.<br>
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<br>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-74507338035800188102015-09-07T20:45:00.001-07:002015-09-07T20:45:38.219-07:00I can do so much more...<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYPU-eQYYG92wo8-dFcLh2E37yqG7fEODiQIKO7xIxWe1OxyLlIl6YCDZgCorpmPn4HueFgRHN8xDsBQdt9lNPbxVcDAhDEFI4KyUv9JKDtH3GNLggpf8F5lTrzoePH-28hCV-bAwOo6zm/s640/blogger-image-320555759.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYPU-eQYYG92wo8-dFcLh2E37yqG7fEODiQIKO7xIxWe1OxyLlIl6YCDZgCorpmPn4HueFgRHN8xDsBQdt9lNPbxVcDAhDEFI4KyUv9JKDtH3GNLggpf8F5lTrzoePH-28hCV-bAwOo6zm/s640/blogger-image-320555759.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">There are days when I don't like the choices I make. Most days actually. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Whether it's what time I sleep until or having one too many sweets. Or maybe it's the constant procrastination on nearly every deadline or to do. Lack of bible time or lack of physical activity. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Ever since the whirlwind of baby Anchor, it seems no matter how hard or how much I think about something, I haven't been doing. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I look around at some of my favorite people and crave specific things or disciplines that they have. Not that I'm discontent with my life, I love what I have going on... I'm just not living<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"> it to the fullest. </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I've made my list... that's the planner in me... of what small changes I'm going to make in my every day. Because they say 'small changes make a big difference.' </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">And that's what I'm going for... A big difference. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">So now I'd like to know, what is a small something you know you should start doing in order to get that big change over time. How do you make sure you are living and loving life to the fullest?</div>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-74147912956698623862015-09-06T21:00:00.001-07:002015-09-06T21:00:59.296-07:00Sunday with the Sprys<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBbPrl08H_aC8tv2jtV6QZY-BZIlGA8VlNcHJthHgEE-UcB2JfAHHqUththsSm-W4nBkmtlFrz8jlW9h7X00iewlPzLEQkKmb_aUINly3cSpHdun71fxFPoOJnAM-lhhMwUkE0x2cWn-RT/s640/blogger-image-1195501008.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBbPrl08H_aC8tv2jtV6QZY-BZIlGA8VlNcHJthHgEE-UcB2JfAHHqUththsSm-W4nBkmtlFrz8jlW9h7X00iewlPzLEQkKmb_aUINly3cSpHdun71fxFPoOJnAM-lhhMwUkE0x2cWn-RT/s640/blogger-image-1195501008.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGROn9KBI4jYuZGjsWs4JH9PSocEX2RnlcrUpSATUJGuEtve9e_49o12Zix2RlODCRbayG2tToeAE2ZNfXWy4ANwJAJoO6Lp3A3lU3tPGLyuK72AlXZ4WS2aM_tXyTkWX8d759HLMDQ_E2/s640/blogger-image--1131631059.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGROn9KBI4jYuZGjsWs4JH9PSocEX2RnlcrUpSATUJGuEtve9e_49o12Zix2RlODCRbayG2tToeAE2ZNfXWy4ANwJAJoO6Lp3A3lU3tPGLyuK72AlXZ4WS2aM_tXyTkWX8d759HLMDQ_E2/s640/blogger-image--1131631059.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiyRaE7HF8Cl1qfH7lRsbY-S44jAHHpbdBMroko3Soh3LfZrwBlmUpbC_qrX245t9QXZ2LZCpwELk5oEwKhQ9KJEC4WnjRb8b9TKmBVlpJJfTXK6MnMIi8Dn50ZhduXv7UKFc-2iSmgH7as/s640/blogger-image-1565891853.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiyRaE7HF8Cl1qfH7lRsbY-S44jAHHpbdBMroko3Soh3LfZrwBlmUpbC_qrX245t9QXZ2LZCpwELk5oEwKhQ9KJEC4WnjRb8b9TKmBVlpJJfTXK6MnMIi8Dn50ZhduXv7UKFc-2iSmgH7as/s640/blogger-image-1565891853.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a>Snuggling with Papa<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjxEi9bwarrlNE9s6GgiYRFNcVWwgDDeKLyeE06ZYYdt12-yU4fXZmvfJ8Q_hUU4cfFmyib-GVnMKDP_7R_kNaizkRR3yFGOpgo2XAcgJvHYnVtpqz9L9dwWv8Ghg0UUWn0ibcpZZo86Pm/s640/blogger-image--387169787.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjxEi9bwarrlNE9s6GgiYRFNcVWwgDDeKLyeE06ZYYdt12-yU4fXZmvfJ8Q_hUU4cfFmyib-GVnMKDP_7R_kNaizkRR3yFGOpgo2XAcgJvHYnVtpqz9L9dwWv8Ghg0UUWn0ibcpZZo86Pm/s640/blogger-image--387169787.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Sleeping in and snoozing. </div><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiyRaE7HF8Cl1qfH7lRsbY-S44jAHHpbdBMroko3Soh3LfZrwBlmUpbC_qrX245t9QXZ2LZCpwELk5oEwKhQ9KJEC4WnjRb8b9TKmBVlpJJfTXK6MnMIi8Dn50ZhduXv7UKFc-2iSmgH7as/s640/blogger-image-1565891853.jpg"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Scripture and sermon over donuts and coffee. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiu6EPxEkLk09SIpZGx5z69pf_Bxv9ZqeAT-hlqUzm5fCXbZXuqjXXHPwegSf0ZAIcA-i_7NjtbZc8hOIMshTNakvtZf3jEKNRBRu4eLrZY6_Gt3xIVPNeK68wQru_6JNj58qNqVAzgjZFd/s640/blogger-image-20104607.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiu6EPxEkLk09SIpZGx5z69pf_Bxv9ZqeAT-hlqUzm5fCXbZXuqjXXHPwegSf0ZAIcA-i_7NjtbZc8hOIMshTNakvtZf3jEKNRBRu4eLrZY6_Gt3xIVPNeK68wQru_6JNj58qNqVAzgjZFd/s640/blogger-image-20104607.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Spinning and twirling... And lots of falling down. </div><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGROn9KBI4jYuZGjsWs4JH9PSocEX2RnlcrUpSATUJGuEtve9e_49o12Zix2RlODCRbayG2tToeAE2ZNfXWy4ANwJAJoO6Lp3A3lU3tPGLyuK72AlXZ4WS2aM_tXyTkWX8d759HLMDQ_E2/s640/blogger-image--1131631059.jpg"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">A whole lot of sitting. </div><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBbPrl08H_aC8tv2jtV6QZY-BZIlGA8VlNcHJthHgEE-UcB2JfAHHqUththsSm-W4nBkmtlFrz8jlW9h7X00iewlPzLEQkKmb_aUINly3cSpHdun71fxFPoOJnAM-lhhMwUkE0x2cWn-RT/s640/blogger-image-1195501008.jpg"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Today was chilly so staying inside was our lazy option. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Our little one slept for almost 5 hours Ina hunk lady night. When you finally get a good night of sleep, it takes all you've got just to get out of bed. So today we rested. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">My dad and step mom just headed to bed on their last night here. It was a quick trip with even less notice they were coming. But oh how it makes our hearts happy when family comes to visit. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Forever, we've been the 'entertainers.' You come visit us and we will run you ragged taking you everywhere we love to go. But now with our new normal of staying home, every visitor we have had basically just sat in the couch with us. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">A big part of me feels bad. Family and friends driving and flying half way across the country to spend their vacation days with us and we just sit. Shouldn't we be showing them our beautiful city? Taking them for a float? A hike? Something?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">But then the small part of me thinks this is just wonderful. Just being. Soaking in each other. Sharing stories, sitting quietly, cooking and cleaning up, sipping on a drink and laughing over dinner. But most of all, just snuggling and being together. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">And that makes me happy. 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Two weeks ago we made her a potty chart (yep, on a dinner menu calendar but hey, you use what you've got when you think of it and have the time to sit down and get it done.) At the end of every week, she get a reward. You'll notice that last week was ice cream and this week was the carousel downtown. She can only earn this if she went all week using the potty during waking hours. Not one single accident, which tells me that she is more than ready. In November, she was almost potty trained completely.... then I got pregnant and was too exhausted to constantly be running her to the bathroom. I know, selfish. But oh how that first trimester always kicks my butt. After I finally started feeling better, we started again. And then we had Anchor. And then we quit again. So now we are finally doing it. 100% committed. Let's be honest, having a reward dangling in front of you helps too!</div>
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Missoula's carousel is one of the fastest in North America, so I was hesitant on letting Avin ride by herself on her horse. Because it's so fast, they don't allow parents to stand by the kiddo. You either ride with them or ride next to them. Avin was begging to ride alone, so I figured if I was sitting beside her, she could ride alone.... with the belt wrapped twice around her for safety. Because honestly, 2 weeks of waiting for a 2 year old is a long, long time. </div>
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I lifted her on and strapped her in before realizing the only open horse next to hers was a BUCKING BRONCO! This mom had to ride a horse that was at a 45 degree angle. Are you kidding me?!? But, she worked so hard and I could sacrifice a little bit of discomfort (or a LOT of bit) for a few spins around the carousel.</div>
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Our horses made 2 full circles and we heart the loudest clunk. Um... not good. The carousel BROKE! I was crushed for Avin. But she had absolutely no idea that this wasn't normal. She was just too happy that she got to ride the horse, up and down, all by herself! She was laughing uncontrollably and had the proudest smile for minutes after we got off.</div>
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When I looked at it as a big major disappointment and set back, she didn't see that at all. She only experienced joy. Pure joy. Even short lived. And then we got ice cream. </div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHlxowtZALB1zo4gMHHZDs5bvQIYYINR_jZJK76RKUTOoc32wWzZ9IkQDwzViNvgZxbAhJR69BYwYH1Jczib-E75l85kB9xM_jiD9RMGgNqPN1StCzb4UzeY6PzzSTtjPbSeQtZoHs5i-f/s640/blogger-image--1883919933.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHlxowtZALB1zo4gMHHZDs5bvQIYYINR_jZJK76RKUTOoc32wWzZ9IkQDwzViNvgZxbAhJR69BYwYH1Jczib-E75l85kB9xM_jiD9RMGgNqPN1StCzb4UzeY6PzzSTtjPbSeQtZoHs5i-f/s640/blogger-image--1883919933.jpg"></a></div></div>
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Her satisfaction reminds me to be happy for the little bits and not always craving the much. For some reason, I seem to be an all or nothing person. If I get behind on my bible reading, I feel crushed and if I can't do the whole lesson in one day, I quit. But if I just took the little bits when I could that would be better than being obsessed with not getting it all done. Instead of not stopping with one piece of carrot cake and being satisfied, I feel like I need a second. </div>
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Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-73925709056804392682015-09-03T22:15:00.001-07:002015-09-04T10:46:15.478-07:00Soaking up a Memory - Grandma's Ark<div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Growing up, when we were at our grandmas house, my sisters and I would get the privilege to play with Noah's Ark and animals in her sink. Grandma just had a perfect way of making each of us feel special and almost spoiled when she would pull out this old ark for us to play with. (As I'm sure she did with every grandchild... 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I didn't want to just get another something that would end up in a pile or in her closet, or worse, stacked in the garage waiting for the next garage sale. I wanted something that would provide countless hours of entertainment and would create a memory for her. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">It hit me link a ton of bricks... Noah's Ark. But it couldn't be just any Noah's Ark. It had to be the one exactly like the one at grandmas house. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">One thing is sure, I can hunt down pretty much anything on the Internet, without really knowing what exactly I was looking for. I stayed up all night searching until finally in found exactly the one I had to get for her. (At this point I had to ask myself honestly; was this for her or for me? Me... Duh!)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">After all my research, the coolest thing that I found out was this ark and these animals came from.... Are you ready?!.... A GAS STATION!!! </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">At Arco gas stations in the early 1970s, you could purchase the Ark and then each fill up, you would get a pair of animals. How cool is that?! If I were a child then, I know that would have been a highlight to go get gas with my mom or dad. I wonder if my dad was ever the lucky kid to see what the newest addition to the set would be that week. I sure wish we had incentives like that to fill our tanks. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">After my hours of research, and then scrounging eBay for a complete set, I finally laid my eyes on a BRAND NEW, Vintage ARCO Noah's Ark. Still in original packing! </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I wish I could blame being up too late and super tired, but I know that I would have paid the embarrassing price tag any time. If you're a vintage you collector, close your ears...... Because as soon as that package arrived in the mail, I ripped open all the packages of the animals and Noah (who Avin now refers to as Grandpa Kit!) and his wife. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I didn't purchase this incredible find just to have it sit on a shelf, in its packagin, collecting dust. No, I splurged on this 'toy' to be just that. To be used today like it was today. To give a toddler well over an hour to get lost in her own little world.. Hands wrinkled, chilly water and cupboards and floors drenched. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">There isn't another toy that we own that brings both of us nearly as much joy as this one does. After dozens of times pulling it down from the shelf, Avin still gets excited to play with the ark. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">It give me joy... And clean counters, cupboard fronts and floor after I'm finished soaking up the mess. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Is there a toy you remember from childhood that you absolutely love and have purchased for your child or wish you could? Please share. December is coming and I need more ideas. </div><br></div>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-56117166144912287512015-09-02T22:45:00.002-07:002015-09-02T23:05:14.805-07:00Relationships Built Through ScentsyI received the sweetest text from a very special friend this morning. She opened her TimeHop app and this is what popped up 6 years ago today.<br>
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I had been a<a href="http://www.warmnsniff.com/"> Scentsy</a> consultant for just over a year at that time and I had met Amy through Facebook. We had one mutual friend at the time and somehow we connected. Amy makes the most adorable hand appliquéd crafts and baby clothing. I instantly fell in love with her creativity. At that time of my life, I spent most of my time crafting.... scrapbooking, repurposing second hand goodies, coffee cozies, and more. Amy and I grew a friendship through Facebook over warmers & wax and crafts & creativity.<br>
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Six years later, countless phone conversations, we have grown to be incredible friends. We have grown together and worked our successful <a href="http://jari.scentsy.us/join">Scentsy Family businesses</a> side by side. Without Scentsy and our incredible products, we probably wouldn't know each other today. I can't imagine not having her on this journey of life and business with me.<br>
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Today we have 225 mutual friends on Facebook. This blows me away. This simply means that the business we are in is all about relationships. It's humbling, really, to know so many people all because of our growing businesses. When I joined, one of the main reasons that I invested that $99 was to make friends. Little did I know then, that by sharing a product that I loved, I would be blessed beyond my wildest dreams with honest, authentic, lovely friends.<br>
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This community that we have built and the friendship we have will forever keep us on the phone, sharing ideas... laughing, crying, and goal setting together. We have both grown into people we didn't recognize 6 years ago. Even though we live hundreds of miles away and only see each other once or twice a year, we pick up right where we left off. I love friendships like this. I'm grateful that I have many relationships like this. Some from high school, college, church and maybe a work place or two.... but most of my friendships are with women who are building a legacy for their children with Scentsy.<br>
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I'll never forget the feeling I felt when in October 2011, Amy reached Super Star Director (our highest title in the Scentsy Family!) She hit this lofty and amazing milestone before I did and I'll always remember that I honestly didn't care about myself or my goals in that moment. There was something so special and made my heart leap for joy at the thought of my friend reaching the top of the mountain! All I could think was how absolutely proud I was of her. And then I worked like heck to follow her footsteps to the top!<br>
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This perfectly describes what our Scentsy Family is about: giving more than you take, investing in others to help them be successful, celebrating with arrows out.<br>
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I'm humbled and blessed to be able to call Amy friend.... along with so many other women that I've met along this crazy journey. As I reflected on these relationships today, I can't help but feel overjoyed. Grateful. Honored. Happy.<br>
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During our stay in the NICU, our son had to be put on several different milk fortifiers (formula that they add to the breastmilk) to get him to gain any weight. Every formula we tried would just tear his little guts up. Finally, exhausted with trying and failing, Dr Stevens and I both decided that we could try only breastmilk. Now here's to preface that I have a TON of milk! A little perspective; I have almost 3,000 ounces in our freezer and have fed Anchor from the beginning plus I've provided supplemental milk for a sweet baby girl too.<br />
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Today Anchor Joel feels like a newborn. Like a baby thriving in his environment and I couldn't feel any more relief that I do right now. His lungs will grow. They'll get bigger and stronger with time. His heart will prayerfully heal (<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">his ASD -<b style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 16px; line-height: 19.2000007629395px;">atrial septal defect-</b><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 16px; line-height: 19.2000007629395px;"> sometimes referred to as a hole in the heart — is a type of congenital heart defect in which there is an abnormal opening in the dividing wall between the upper filling chambers of the heart - will prayerfully go away as he gets bigger. </span></span><br />
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Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-27231891344255739032015-08-31T22:04:00.000-07:002015-08-31T22:04:54.820-07:00Who I Am Lately.I've been struggling with writing. I'm not sure why other than feeling like I don't know how to share with you our everyday story exactly the way I want it to be told. Like I'm incapable of telling you how we are. So, tonight I'm going to start by sharing with you me. Who I am lately.<br />
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I am a wife. I am a nag. I am a mom. I am distracted. I am excited. I am a listener. I'm a screamer. I am a dog petter. I am the cook, cleaner and laundry stain scrubber. I am a leader. I am an encourager. I am scared. I am humbled. I am lonely but I am at peace. I am a snuggler and puzzle assistant. I'm a helper of homework and budget planner. I am a lemonade and coffee spill cleaner upper. I am a texter. I am a Food Network watcher... in the background of my day. I am a negotiator and questioner of insurance claims. I am forgetful... (Happy Birthday yesterday Mom! I love you!) I'm a procrastinator. I am crazy busy.... but yet crazy lazy. I'm a husband kisser. I'm a communicator. I am a baby milk producer. I am a PTSA member (just signed up tonight.) I am a Bible studier. I'm a story teller and book reader. I am a prayer over my husband, kiddos and home. I'm a hoarder of God's miracles (I promise to share soon.) I'm a collector of stationary. I am a monitor silencer. I am a student planner signer. I am a cheerleader and a play dough artist. I'm a pro diaper changer and also the recipient of an occasional pee pee shower! (EW! ... BOYS!) I am vulnerable. I am weak. I'm a taco pie maker and a chocolate chip cookie baker. I'm a swaddler. I am a pumpkin lover (like everything pumpkin including the pumpkin spice ice cream from Schwann's.... get yourself some!) I am a bath time attendee. I am a dishwasher. I am tired. I am a coffee and wine drinker... and a goldfish cracker eater. And so much more.<br />
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And this was just today. As I sit here and put down into words the exact feelings I had today; how I labeled myself today; I hear the Holy Spirit telling me who I really am.<br />
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I am a daughter of The King. First and foremost. I am strong because I have Christ and I don't have to go through my days trying to do and be it all. I have been given these gifts and responsibilities of being a wife, mom and business owner because The Lord loves me. And that is exciting and humbling. I have a story that needs to be told. Everyday. Even when I'm tired or feeling insignificant in the scheme of our day to day. Who would I be to not share His goodness? I am called to share our blessings with others. It's time to be brave. The words will come.<br />
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If you've been around for a while you'll know that I took a <a href="http://allisondalke.com/">friend's</a> challenge and wrote everyday a couple years ago for a long time (I didn't make it quite a year) but now I know that the only way I'll remember this season in our lives is if I write it down. And let's face it, I'm a way better typer than I am a writer. I want to remember. I want to share. So please join me. I'll be here.... being vulnerable, scattered but brave.Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-86261763395355236782015-08-25T23:09:00.001-07:002015-08-25T23:09:51.600-07:00Change is toughI knew tonight wasn't going to be easy. Change is hard. But anything worth doing is hard. Usually the right things to do are hard. <div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8wLUtfheRoNIhRMk3kyuUBql6AeZjpAfA1iurDbHxDI0CdXd7q654Y-7ppjRKheTrInirvDRavYIHUCHTsjrZVJ5TtIFnKpg7GGoKZGTvKsTQUN7kWDTpERcEWAdyAX-CkizQIYQxRinm/s640/blogger-image-1858687024.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8wLUtfheRoNIhRMk3kyuUBql6AeZjpAfA1iurDbHxDI0CdXd7q654Y-7ppjRKheTrInirvDRavYIHUCHTsjrZVJ5TtIFnKpg7GGoKZGTvKsTQUN7kWDTpERcEWAdyAX-CkizQIYQxRinm/s640/blogger-image-1858687024.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div>I'm not sure if it's just for this season or forever, but tomorrow, we are sending our big girls off for school. </div><div><br></div><div>We've homeschooled for the past 5 years. It's been a challenge and an adventure since day one. I never thought I'd be able to teach them well. There was always doubt, but never more than I'm feeling today. </div><div><br></div><div>Although we had an amazing support system and group of friends who also home educate, all of the studies, prep and application fall on your hands as a mom and teacher. </div><div><br></div><div>What if I didn't teach them well? We haven't had a routine for years and now what if they stink at time managemt like me? What if I overprotected them and they feel uncomfortable with the things life throws at them? What if they took on my personality of being shy and a little introverted? Would they still make good friends? Will they like their teacher? What if someone's mean to them? </div><div><br></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZcoXmU4tWi1m5_BhlMaKTW7FZR6QAEA9URwuIzbpRXzih4BhAdG5F7e8IJrSc7zQw8v8VKwhcn-3yyDElONmtroclBnaDhywWBtM5GZL621wP8AGqoTZkKNDhem6aQrfCdGDCyGa1ydHP/s640/blogger-image--1880056296.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZcoXmU4tWi1m5_BhlMaKTW7FZR6QAEA9URwuIzbpRXzih4BhAdG5F7e8IJrSc7zQw8v8VKwhcn-3yyDElONmtroclBnaDhywWBtM5GZL621wP8AGqoTZkKNDhem6aQrfCdGDCyGa1ydHP/s640/blogger-image--1880056296.jpg"></a></div>And then I remember and am quickly comforted that Jesus is always with our precious children... And with us. That even when it's hard or uncomfortable, we are okay. And we can get through this. </div><div><br></div><div>I'm nervous but excited for them. I'm nervous but excited for me.... somehow keeping up with the littlest. We're up for the challenge of this next chapter. Because really, it's already a part of our new normal. </div>Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3754145872155254343.post-37560319978158542922015-07-23T18:49:00.003-07:002015-07-23T19:32:44.209-07:00When Plans Change<div class="separator" style="clear: both;">
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Today marks 81 days of life in the NICU. Today was also suppose to be the day that we were finally going to take our son through the hospital doors. But plans changed.<br>
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I've been able to take some curve balls with stride during the past 12 weeks here, but today was different. Today I felt devastated. Heartbroken. Sad. Frustrated. Defeated.<br>
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Today I also was humbled. Joel and I had taken down nearly all of his decorations. We said good bye to our nurses and friends.... because when they are pretty much the only people you've been around the past 3 months, they become friends who understand and love you through this big life event. He passed the car seat test. We took our CPR class. We finished all of our discharge checklist. He is gaining weight. We got comfortable with the easy coasting. We were used to taking only steps forward. It had been weeks since we've had a set back with Anchor's care; we were past that.<br>
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But we weren't. And we aren't.<br>
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During his morning check up, on the day of discharge, our little guys blood pressure was up. It had been slowly creeping up the past few days but we were told this is something we would just keep an eye on during our out patient care with our pediatrician. But this morning, we were told that it's high enough to be concerning. Anchor had to do more blood work and began blood pressure medicine per the request of the pediatric nephrologist from Seattle Childrens. They are sending his labs into Mayo Clinic for more comprehensive testing and to check kidney function.<br>
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So we are here. This is where we'll be until at least Sunday. And even though it's hard, and it sucks, and I'm sad, I know that this is exactly where we are suppose to be. The Lord's timing is always perfect and we will rest in that today.... and always.<br>
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Tonight, I will sit here, constantly being reminded of the blessings and constant favor God has shown us during the past few months... and I will rejoice.Jarihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04719839199716436390noreply@blogger.com3